Junk media makes me lose passion
One negative effect that junk media (i.e., reddit, youtube, instagram, ...) has on me is to lose passion for what I deeply care. This is a extensive but probably incomplete list of what I love doing:
- reading a good book/manga
- watching an interesting movie/anime
- cooking a good meal
- improving my photography
- working on a side coding project
- sports like bouldering, running or a nice trekking
Whenever I put aside time to do these activities I feel grateful to be alive and I feel a deep sense of satisfaction and happiness.
More often than not, I unfortunately find myself scrolling on my phone or laptop, watching stuff which I really don't care but that makes me feel bad afterwards. Whenever I consume these types of media, I feel numb and unmotivated to do any of the things I listed above because everything seems boring and uninteresting. Yesterday, I thought about this, and I felt sad that I sacrifice so much time doing things I don't like instead of doing things I love.
I wonder why, knowing all this, I still find myself falling into the same bad habits..